I don’t know when I’ve felt so low. It’s like.. no one really does take the time out to see how I am feeling or not feeling.. if I’m happy or not. There’s a couple of people that notice from time to time and to you, I’m eternally grateful and hope you know who you are.
I’m not okay, and it seems like most of the people in my life don’t even take one second to ask how I am. To look at me and really notice. It’s fine for them to go on and on about themselves and a lot of the time I find that an entire hour or two or three has passed and not a single question has been asked of me.
Therefore I keep my issues to myself and try to fix them on my own because I’m an adult and I should be able to do so. I won’t even post them on here.
And then they get mad and wonder why am I acting this way.
I feel alone and lost and one hair away from breaking down,
but if I smile and crack jokes no one bothers to really look
further than that.
That’s just perfect.
I will keep on giving because that’s who I am,
I’m too tired to fight anymore battles this year.
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
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“Whatever you hold in your mind will tend to occur in your life. If you continue to believe as you have always believed, you will continue to act as you have always acted. If you continue to act as you have always acted, you will continue to get what you have always gotten. If you want different results in your life or your work, all you have to do is change your mind.” – Unknown Author
Comment by Adagio October 25, 2006 @ 1:37 amHey Kat. I like your hat.
Comment by davidbdale October 25, 2006 @ 12:00 pmI didn’t see this blog. Haven’t had a chance to really keep up with the blog, but I must say that I’m one of the ones that go on and on about the drama in my life. Sorry sweetie. I will be a better friend. You are as I was, cracking jokes and hoping that someone will notice. Maybe I’m bitching so much because I finally got fed up. I’m sorry you have to be on the receiving end of all the shit that others before you have done to me. Neglected me as a friend. I promise you I’ll be a better friend. In being a better friend to you, it also means that I’ll be better to myself. The better I am to myself the less I’ll have to be sad about and have to bitch about. I should go back to blogging on my site. Not sure when that will happen but keep checking it. I feel that I have so much to say, but yet when I do sit down and want to write. It seems as if it’s not even worth it anymore.
I love you.
Comment by Jillian October 27, 2006 @ 4:11 am