This is it.
In 67 days the opening reception for my senior thesis design show will finally happen. This means that I have about 50 days to write and put together my book. Translation? This little Kit Kat is going to be MIA for awhile.
This is a general list of all the things I have to do JUST within the next month:
- Write the content for the book
- Put aside three days and nights for my professionally commissioned photoshoots
- Sketch out a minimum of five different design directions
- Find a case cover printer
- Find other book printers
- Look for decorations for our exhibition
- Figure out a design structure and theme (with help of the classes)
- Choose a color palette
- Go to a Museum in DC – write a paper
- Go to a Performance at School – write a paper
- Go to New York on ARTSBus
- Host Maeve’s Bridal Shower
- Host Maeve’s Bachelorette Party
- Maeve’s Wedding (I’m a bridesmaid)
- Midterms
- About 3 math tests
- Ten pages of the book should be done
- Lower my blood pressure / cholesterol levels
- Start exercising again
IN ADDITION:
- I still work 7 days a week
That’s JUST for the next thirty or so days, and that’s JUST what I can remember. Not included is the massive amount of reading that I have to do for my Western Civ class and various tasks for both of my jobs.
Why am I writing this?
Because, inevitably, everytime I get unbelievably busy there’s always 1 (or 2 or 3 or 4…) person (people) that thinks I’m just being an uber douchebag and want to ignore everyone and become.. Super Emo Kat: Girl Hermit of the Western Hemisphere.
So I apologize beforehand if I:
- Don’t go out
- Don’t come over
- Dont pick up the phone
- Don’t sound full of energy
- Seem stressed
- Pass out in my bed with Leo and can’t answer the phone due to my lifeless state
- Can’t devote every second of my life to all of you
I don’t do it on purpose, but this is very important for me. My god I’ve been in school FOREVER and it’s finally about to be over. No one has even bothered to ask, all the phone calls I get have nothing to do with me at all. I could be dying from Hepatitis that I could have picked up while walking barefoot in Arlington last week and no one would know. We’re on planet Earth, not planet “Me” so please be courteous because I extend that courtesy to everyone.
At any rate, the last thing I would ever want to do is make anyone feel like I’m trying to ignore you or that I’m just hiding away from life. That’s not it at all, and I’ll still pop out and about, but 50 days for everything that I need to do is not a lot of time, and it’s high stress. I can’t even go back to Venezuela for my aunt’s wedding in December because of my school stuff, it’s not a matter of me picking and choosing, it’s a matter of doing what’s most important right now.
I would hope that those who know me understand, but I cannot control how I’m perceived, just how I’m presented. In the past I’ve been slapped in the face with two facedness, I can get over it.
ANYWAYS, I love you all, I can’t believe I’m almost done.
Peace in the Middle. . . . fo’ sho’
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
Filed under: School
So I finally was able to stay at school late last night to begin working on my brochure. I’ve already got about 40% of it done which is definitely exciting. I want to try to have it done by Saturday so I can bring it to class and then only do refinements as opposed to big changes.
The sooner I get to start working on my book the more excited I’ll be!
FO’ SHO’ (So achin’ to see Superbad again!)
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
Filed under: Wedding
You finally found each other after
Searching hard for love.
In this uncertain world you’ve come
To one you’re certain of.
How can you know the someone whom
You’ll cherish throughout life?
What indices identify
A husband or a wife?
Sometimes there’s a gravity:
Sudden, fierce, obsessed;
As if you’re falling towards some star,
By its strong pull possessed.
Or sometimes there’s a childhood sense
Of unselfconscious grace
Sustained within the safety zone
Of unprovoked embrace.
Sometimes there’s the terror of
The searing pain of grief,
As if the loss of love were death:
Sheer scream without relief.
Or there’s a sense of loveliness
Too precious to be lost:
A gift of all that makes life good,
Beyond constraint or cost.
Whatever signs you read, they all
Point in the same direction:
The self that lies beyond the self
In love and shared affection.
True love lies far beyond the will,
Yet you must choose to love:
Each day to put aside the self
And with the angels move.
–Anonymous
Dedicated to you two on the day before your wedding 
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
Filed under: 09/11/01
“..and all you could see was thousands of hands go up in the air as if they were trying to keep it from falling..”
Remember.
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
Filed under: Alicia Keys, Britney Spears, Chris Brown, MTV, Perez Hilton, VMA
Wow, people talk a lot of smack.. I guess it’s my turn!
On the VMA’s themselves: I think it’s interesting how everyone is talking about how disastrous Britney’s performance was, however, the VMA’s themselves were a disaster. A complete WASTE of two hours of my time! I don’t think I’m the only who thought that giving out like two awards and showing a million and a half scenes from stupid parties in the hotel was the way to go. Call me old fashioned, but I like the old school VMA’s, where they had the little mosh pit of fans in front of the stage, and everyone else just sat theatre style. The only one worth watching ALL night was the Rihanna with Fall Out Boy, and it wasn’t even the performance, it was just awesome to have those boys singing her song, it sounded killer. Remember the days when the performances all had to be planned out and be super awesome, and we could see how every new performer would transform the stage? ME EITHER, these little parties, are you fucking kidding me? It seemed like they just wanted to shove the fans in little holes everywhere. The only reason I really even watched was to see Britney perform. On to that:
On Britney: Everyone is saying absurd things (Like she’s fat – OKAY just because she no longer weighs 90 lbs doesn’t mean she’s fat. Bad costume choice, but she looks normal and healthy) and then people are saying some true things (Her heart wasn’t in it, Lipsynching was off.) I will put my concensus here now: She did not look bored, she looked nervous. Like, scared shitless I would say. If you look closely, her eyes dodge around like she’s looking at everyone that’s there and those are the moments when she messes up. I definitely didn’t get what I wanted out of the performance, I think the Cris Angel stuff would have been awesome. Nonetheless, there’s not a single enterntainer that has been able to kill it every single time they’ve ever been on stage. It’s unfortunate because she had a killer opportunity to really say fuck off to everyone. No matter what I’m still a fan and I’m still buying her album the minute it comes out. It’s like being a fan of the Redskins, win or lose, a REAL fan is there all the time.
What I LOVED:
CHRIS BROWN’s performance: Now THAT is how the VMA’s are supposed to be, that was so killer with the kids dancing on the tables and the Michael Jackson moment. His performance was the best out of any of the shit that was on that stupid waste of 2 hours last night. I totally have a new level of respect for that kid. I bet you when he was passing out in class 3 years ago he never thought he’d be at the VMA’s struttin his stuff!
What I HATED:
Alicia Keys’s Performance: For some ungodly reason, I think I’m one of the few in this. Alicia Keys’s performance to me was AWFUL. First of all, she is a sexy mama, so why the hell would they throw that fake hair on TOP of the slicked back greased hair she had on earlier. Oh yes, I looked closely, she had the same do that she had earlier, they just strapped the curlies on.. and it did not look cute. Second of all, those pants were not flattering for her, who the hell is her stylist?! She’s a hot tamale and yet that outfit did NOT work.. it is someone’s sole job to make sure she looks killer. I’m not even going to talk about those shiteous boots she was wearing. To quote my friend “Those are the kinds of boots that I would wear in my house and be like ‘these are so cool!’ but I would never ever wear that shit out in public!” It just didn’t work for me. The song was not one of her best, she wasn’t rocking out on the piano, and the dancing looked SO forced for me. At the end with the gospel singers, it was just too much, it sounded like when you have like 3 songs playing at the same time and you can’t figure out what’s where, there was all the crazy drum percussion noises, her singing, and the awesome Gospel people.. it unfortunately just sounded like noise. I still love you Alicia, I know you can REALLY kill it so I’ll forgive ya 
LIKE I said earlier, not EVERY performer kills it every time.
Sarah Silverman: Usually she’s so hilarious, but no one was laughing last night, and I was not impressed. Her jokes were completely out of line, and when they weren’t, they still weren’t funny. I’ve seen her do that vagina thing with her mouth a million times before. if you want to make fun of someone, go ahead, but for her to target Britney’s kids was too far, and the audience thought so as well. Not a single thing she did was funny, kinda disappointing.
The celebrity only ampitheatre: I just think that the way they decided to do these shows was utterly horrible. Okay, I’m sure the people at these parties had a fun time, getting to party in close proximity to these stars, but what about us at home? The ones who actually watch the videos and can’t be there. The people that were in attendance were just celebrities and like .001 percent of the fans of music videos, I just wish that the show was geared towards all fans and not just the people that were in attendance.
Oh well! At least Britney’s new song is h-o-t-t, even Perez who hates Britney right now thinks so. Go check it: http://www.perezhilton.com
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
Filed under: Uncategorized
“I don’t know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, ‘well, if I’d known better I’d have done better,’ that’s all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, ‘I’m sorry,’ and then you say to yourself, ‘I’m sorry.’ If we all hold on to the mistake, we can’t see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can’t see what we’re capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one’s own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that’s rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don’t have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.” – Maya Angelou
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
I’m doing it hermit style. Not going out, dancing or anything although I love it, the reasons as to why are a little too personal for me to put on here but if you know me well enough you may know why already.
The solution to this sadness?
I find happiness in everyday joys such as Britney Spears’s new single “Gimme More”
I’m a die hard fan and I will be forever, listening to that song today made me smile
<3 siempre,
AristoKat
